perseverance

sweet god in heaven....

so, i mentioned that i'm a nice guy right?
so nothing gets my goat more than when people assume i'm an angry,nasty,mean,ungrateful...etc.guy.

on top of which, i've never had a real enemy, nor a friend who dumped me. that is, i've never, ever, had a falling out with a friend that was anything serious.

so why tell you, right? well.

a girl i knew briefly was friends with me online. the other day i sent her a comment which her boyfriend read and misinterperted. (the comment was not meant to be riske~, but it was worded in a more suggestive manner than was perhaps sensible). so he get back to me with "hands off buddy, that my girl" message. apparently she was out of town or something. i send them both an apology, but to think that this girl even thought i could mean what her boyfriend seamed to think i meant....well, obviously she doesn't know me at all.

it just makes me so mad, you know?

i AM a good boy, and far better than most.


anyhow, the good news in all this is that i really don't care if i ever speak to her again. i'd be ok with jut dropping her completely.

i have been a doormat far too long. god knows.

i try to please others too hard...but that will end soon.

i'm growing up, and soon i'll be gone.

i hate to be morbid, but i don't fear death....i will welcome it when it comes.

what with the country going down the tubes, and the globe all out of whack...i wouldn't mind dieing tomorrow.


again i'm reminded that it is people who cause all my problems. not machines (even when they break down). if i could get away from the people...now THAT would be the life.

there is no peace, nor love, nor joy...so for now i leave you with...

perseverance out.